Day 1

So today is day 1 of 35 without Stacey.
Honestly I didn't think for a second it would be a problem for me, miss independent, miss i love being alone, miss I have tons of things to occupy my time with. Yeah I knew I would be sad, but gee this is a total shocker- Day 1 and I'm already having withdrawals. I know it is only going to get harder so I'll save all my depressing emotions for later.

In order to not go insane I have told myself to stay busy. Spend time with the girls. Finish some art projects. Get motivated. Set some goals to focus on through the month. Eat healthy and exercise. And most importantly, Blog Blog Blog.

Keep Positive.

Dear Colorado,

I know we haven't met but please be good to my boyfriend while he is with you. he really likes you. i am giving up christmas and new years with him so please send him back fast. hope to meet you soon.
-the girlfriend in Tennessee

unperfected

Can you bring me the sunset in a cup?
You can leave it on the nightstand
next to the unfinished homework
and half read novels.

Because a celebration is in store.
We've done it.
We have reached the level
of swiftly flowing anticipation.

The butterflies are here to stay,
even through the dead winter.

therapy mondays

a long winding path of playing roles.
chuck taylor's on.
4 new jcrew cardigans
taking pieces of lifetimes, friends and icons.
going through phases in life
ups and downs
turn arounds
new crowds

when will we find consistency?
loving each moment
hating each moment
changing perspectives-
the only way to get through life
falling in love
forgetting loves
taking pretty pieces of phases
to create one true soul
with a loving hippie heart
and a hodge podge of knowledge

stil undefined
with a taste of my own medicine.

cold sweats

Clock work calculations.

Perfect Predictions.
I can feel it slowly
inching its way in.
Dizzy footsteps. Cold sweats. Shaky hands.
Beating, thumping, pounding,
heart.
Body check 1....2....5....19.

"I'm back."

Control- Lost.
Pride- Lost.
Addiction- Found.

Hold on Strength and Happiness.
Miss Sassy is looking for you.

Winter worries.
I should know better
even with blurred vision.

Baby, it's cold outside